Leo Tolstoy’s pen
How many things would be different in me if it were not for this closeness with Tolstoy…
Tolstoy wrote to the pianist in one of his last letters:
Dear Alexander Borisovich, something more important than music connects me with you, that’s why I value relationship with you.
The last days of Leo Tolstoy’s life were very hard for not only his relatives, but also for Goldenweiser, who arrived at the Astapovo station as soon as he learned that Tolstoy was ill. Goldenweiser shared his impressions of his last meetings with the writer with his wife Anna Alekseyevna in letters,
You can imagine how hard it is for my soul, but I am very glad that I am here.
It was very important for Tolstoy to know that his closest friend was next to him at such a difficult time and even canceled his concert. When Leo Tolstoy died, it was Goldenweiser who announced this sad news to everyone. He helped the writer’s family with the funeral, and then returned to Moscow.
I can’t bring myself to believe he’s gone. He is so alive in my imagination — his words, movements, the sound of his voice, the smell of his body — everything.
The writer’s belongings were not just objects for the musician — they helped him create the effect of Tolstoy’s presence with the power of artistic imagination. In 1955, when a museum of the history of piano art was created in the apartment of Alexander Goldenweiser, an important place was given to the so-called Tolstoy Corner, where some of the writer’s personal belongings, that had been donated by the writer’s family after the funeral, were put on display. Each item had its own interesting story. Tolstoy used the pen with a steel nib to write down his last words in his diary at the railway station in Astapovo on November 5, 1910:
Seryozha arrived at night, and it was very touching. Today, November 3, Tanya, then Goldenweiser and Ivan Ivanovich. Here are my plans. And everything is for the benefit of others and most importantly for me.